Love has really been a huge focus of mine for the past few months,
I fantasized a relationship or an engagement that would pull me away from my chaotic situation,
My apartment was filth my, my car was filth and I was standing on thin ice in regards to my studies.
On the night of halloween I crossed paths with the only person I've ever been in love with,
Brett is current dating a beautiful, funny and amazing new girl while I remain alone,
It was hard for me to come to terms with this situation because when I left Brett I truly believed that I was the best thing in his life and that he would have nothing if I left him.
Why can he find someone while I am still lonely?
I need to work on myself and be strong internally and externally before I can accept any love that comes my way,
I am looking forward to being more selfish with my prospects instead of selling my self short for cheap attention.
Mark used me as a hookup,
I couldn't handle it,
I am going to be single for a long time,
I am excited (:
